numinousdread | Community

I think I am ultimately kind of spooked around the concept of "community" in some instances even if I am separately(?) kind of sentimentally invested in it because I feel like buying into it too strongly would cause me to have to think about whether I have special obligations to community members and what those consist of, and I don't know how to do that in a way that doesn't cause massive scrupulosity. It really is a can of worms for me I guess
So when people apply that framing to my relationships I feel like a kneejerk aversion, like no, I haven't opted to being in community with someone just because I interacted with them once or twice. I guess that's a narrower thing than the broader "community: what is it and what do I owe it" question but it brings up similar feelings.