Dusting myself off
Nov. 7th, 2024 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
numinousdread I'm done freaking out for now; thankfully I'm not alone in sadness or shock or terror. Feeling a sense of collective identity and having tapped into a "mood" that... idk, I'm often aloof from, feeling a more complicated mix of identification and alienation from a lot of political sentiments. Bad arguments, implicit assumptions that seem questionable, rhetorical choices for which I feel distaste, incompatible ethical frameworks.
I have a general sense that... I need to sit back and evaluate, not just sign on to a team. And I like being that way, but it removes some pleasures and satisfactions that I suspect people often get from politics.
But hey, we are all on the same page about this one.
Tried to reach out to friends.
Did an extra-long volunteer shift. We were swamped. Every single person I talked to mentioned the election.
I'm full of resolve to just keep on volunteering with people affected by Trump's anti-trans turn and just keep, idk, mopping up spills. I can't imagine what it'd be like to be a trans teenager getting this news, and I want to be a steady presence for them because I'm okay at it.
I look back at my journals from 2016 and I was so self-centered, so caught up in litigating the legitimacy and permissibility of my gender shit and tastes in fanfiction porn or whatever. Not saying you can't care about multiple things at once-- but, like, priorities, dude.
Need to dust myself off and keep going. I want to finish Trump's term and feel okay about what I did, the person I became in that time. I want to help other people now, as much as I can.
I have a general sense that... I need to sit back and evaluate, not just sign on to a team. And I like being that way, but it removes some pleasures and satisfactions that I suspect people often get from politics.
But hey, we are all on the same page about this one.
Tried to reach out to friends.
Did an extra-long volunteer shift. We were swamped. Every single person I talked to mentioned the election.
I'm full of resolve to just keep on volunteering with people affected by Trump's anti-trans turn and just keep, idk, mopping up spills. I can't imagine what it'd be like to be a trans teenager getting this news, and I want to be a steady presence for them because I'm okay at it.
I look back at my journals from 2016 and I was so self-centered, so caught up in litigating the legitimacy and permissibility of my gender shit and tastes in fanfiction porn or whatever. Not saying you can't care about multiple things at once-- but, like, priorities, dude.
Need to dust myself off and keep going. I want to finish Trump's term and feel okay about what I did, the person I became in that time. I want to help other people now, as much as I can.
